Ever run into somebody that was either a complete stranger or someone you didn’t know very well and have an immediate reaction to them? Like your senses wake up and you have an instant crush. I would describe it as being like that moment in Amelie when she runs into the guy in the train station and has an automatic connection with him. You don’t know anything about them but when they look, speak, or stand near you, you get nervous (the good nervous). This is happening to me and it’s really odd.
I’ve known this guy for ages and always had a bit of a reaction to him, but then a week or so ago I had a dream and he was in it. I hadn’t seen him in ages and I wasn’t even thinking about him, but he just sort of popped in my head randomly and then a few days later I ran into him. We were alone on an elevator and of course I got super awkward and nervous and said absolutely nothing the whole ride (again odd for me I’m generally relaxed at least) and then he goes to leave and turns to me and says bye looking me dead in the eye and I turn into a mumbling smiling schoolgirl. I don’t even know what the fuck was up with that.
I act like that every time I run into this guy and I am seriously getting annoyed by it. I get so rigid and out of it that I have almost run into shit, which is a completely new experience for me. I NEVER get like this about guys especially ones I don’t even know and I have no idea where it’s coming from. And the thing is I’m not even expecting anything to come from all of this. It’s so damn frustrating!
(BTW I have no ending for this, I just wanted to vent… thanks)